its funny how the mind seeks for diversions, distractions, ENTERTAINMENT. the mind cannot just sit with itself, even when there is a big beautiful green mountain to look at. I am trying to practice stillness. I am doing pretty good, i make it to about 4pm and then when i have napped and read and written and meditated, twice, and eaten, twice and scrubbed my laundry on the bathroom floor.... my mind wants ... entertainment. it is very very interesting how hard it is to just... be. To just contemplate and be still. Always always wanting, seeking, craving activity, stimulus, entertainment, something to keep it from itself. so very interesting.
I am waiting for a few more days until the teachers arrive here at the ashram from canada so i can discuss with them the possibility of my taking the teacher training in January. My mind is so focussed. Its very cool.
also i am interviewing various ayurvedic doctors to see who i want to work with over the next month.
I began brushing my teeth with tap water last week.... nothing has happened to me.
i found an internet place close to me that accepts my camera downloads, so now i should have some fresh photos coming soon.
The weather is cooling, it has been raining for a few days. Such a relief for me because i was melting in the heat before.
Have been focusing my practice on meditating as I am devising a new approach that takes into consideration that i cannot pursue a hard core yoga program due to my back flaring issue. It is all a great teaching and a great irony that i have come here and find myself so inhibited in my physical practice of yoga postures. It is a personal journey of healing that is teaching me much. I realize that always, in life, one should do what they CAN do, and not focus on what you can't do. For example, I am relaxing off yoga for the moment, to give the back time, but i CAN meditate, and so... therefore... i will meditate. and i can study, so i will study, there is a whole library of excellent books, fiction and non-fiction, in the ashram library. All this is part of my education too. and it teaches me patience, patience, patience and acceptance of what is.
The other day when it was raining so much, I went out, and the streets just turn to muck, sometimes its deep muck. very exciting to walk in such muck. i try not to think about what, besides just dirt, is comprising the muck.
I just found out today that our cow is going to have a baby! She already has one teenager and now i find out she is 3 months pregnant with baby number two. This is our cow that we get all our milk and yogurt from, and who we feed all our fruit peels and leftovers to. She's a sweety.
well... i guess i better head back to my balcony and my green mountain. First i think i'll slip down to the german bakery for a slice of brown bread with honey. a rare treat. aaaah, the simple things in life. Yesterday i had an ayurvedic consultation and an oil treatment on my back. Always an interesting experience. It was relaxing... and very hot, the oil, at times. Everything is different here eh. you know, the way things are done, at home, the level of cleanliness and professionalism one comes to expect in canada... that all goes out the window here, and that's just the way it is. there's no point in even being disgusted or miffed about it at all, cause the joke is just on you then. Whether its kittens and puppies running loose in the restaurant and sleeping on your feet while you eat, or its the clearly not freshly changed oil soaked cloth that you are invited to get up on for your relaxing oil treatment. its ok, you just enjoy it anyhow, and then go home and have a nice hot shower afterwards. i'm still healthy.
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