february 7

well.
it is a long time between entries these days, isn't it? it takes that long to store up some stories or events to write about these days. the days seem to run one in another lately.
i'll be perfectly frank today. what the heck. i'm getting a little bored.
i just don't have enough to fill my days and am beginning to wonder what it is exactly i am doing here at the moment.
true, i have my teachers class every morning at 6, and that is wonderful. but that is only 2 hours of my day. what do i do with the rest of my day. i have friends, and a friends' family to hang out with, but still, i find myself bored, without purpose, just wandering.
rishikesh has completely normalized for me, so there is no novelty left in it. just regular things and routine events.
it makes me realize how much of my life has been about questing after new and exciting experience and stimuli.

on the upside, the weather is getting really nice. the evenings have lost their bitter cold edge and the days get quite hot. its pretty beautiful this time of year, before the real heat begins to hit.
i just don't know what to do with my days.
hmmm.
maybe i need to start teaching or something.
or volunteering.
everyday i help my friend Rajni at the ashram with her yoga english. she is studying to become a yoga teacher but is brushing up on her english yoga terminology.
actually, in a couple of days i am going with her home to her village for a wedding.
we will be gone 5 days in total. we were discussing the details today. she is going to lend me clothes for the event and she wants to know "sari or salwar kameez suit?". good question. finally we decided that we would do one day in a sari and one day in salwar kameez. these are fun clothes to wear and i am grateful that she is going to dress me up, since i have no fancy clothes of my own.
plus i thought it would be a good experience and education for me, going with her to a village, attending a wedding. i've never been before but i know they are quite the affair, so maybe i will learn something. plus i love rajni, she is the biggest sweetheart and so excited to take me home to her family. we will go by bus, i think its about 4-5 hours away, east of here, towards nanital (a hill station) if any of you know where that is.

so that should break up the boredom a bit.
i don't know what else to do.
hmmm.
maybe i could tie into the rest of my yoga therapy internship. i finished the first 500 hours, but have an optional other 500 that i can do, if i am so motivated.

what IS it with me? i am just not so motivated.
lazy is i think the word.

should have had 5 kids, that would have kept me motivated. haha.
just joking.

ok, well, i gotta run,
hang in there you little snow bunnies. one more month until spring.

love and kisses,
ang