grandma

Its one week until we leave for Thailand.

Its bittersweet now because I just received news that my grandma is in the hospital and not doing well. To say we are close is a huge understatement. So my excitement about Thailand is hampered by my wish to be beside her. But I realize that our bodies... are temporary. It is nature's way. I realize that... I spent as much time as I could with her while she was healthy. We had many good times together. Well, words can't really describe the connection that she and I had. So, I feel ok, in some sense. I know I took advantage of knowing her to the fullest. I never had anyone this close to me die before, so the necessary letting go process is underway. Remembering the shortness and sweetness of life. Thank you grandma, for all you shared, for all you taught me and gave, for all the love and unconditional acceptance support, understanding, guidance and wisdom you gave me over the years. You are my heroine.